moody post.

我又发疯了。
每次考试逼近我都会发疯。
我想回家，很想回家。
每天三餐，
不知道要吃什么。
没有胃口，不想吃。
想做一些自己喜欢做的事情，
不行。
考试要到了，读书读书。

又开始迷茫，
读书是为了考试？
Damn it.
那个聪明人发明考试？
写paper就好了，不行吗？

不想理。
把音乐塞进耳朵，
跟外界隔离。
我要自闭一下。

情绪来了，
不用太安静。
寻找安慰自己的方式，
一切都会过去的。

by the way,
我想念我的朋友。=(

ISH!

复活节假期，

被困在这小小的房间。

对着桌前一本两本三本厚厚的书本，

拼命拼命塞,

塞出脸上一粒两粒代表青春的豆。

Fine.

昨天爸爸说让我买相机。

Hurray! 

开心了一整天，

也去看了相机。

结果？

我家太皇太后一句No,

把我最后一个开心的细胞也杀死了。

事情还没到最糟糕的地方，

重点现在才出场。

爸爸说，

想做什么就去做，

他明白为什么我要买那样的相机，

妈妈不明白没关系，他明白。

他叫我放胆去买，

因为这东西我也想很久，

并不是冲动性的购物，

也不是跟随潮流的行为。

Alright,

妈妈怎么办？

怎么解释？

然后我换新的status,

“我们没有多少青春可以挥霍，Just do it”

妈妈msn我，

Just do it, very brave hor!

我的天。

我不知道我妈最近是吃错什么药，

感觉不太正常。

我处在矛盾街头，

向左走不是，

向右也不是。

借我一把刀，

我会感激你的。

ISH!

今天至少有一件开心的事，

终于终于终于买到帽子了。=)

HK friends

It's really hard to meet or find a nice friend,

especially you are a foreign student.

In such a realistic country, 

people will only be friend with you if they think they can get benefits from you.

Despite the friends from home country,

and some international students,

it's really damn hard to find a true local friend.

However, I am lucky enough to have a different story.

I have three local friends who really treat me as their FRIEND.

Although I still have some Hi-Bye local friends,

and also some friends who will only talk to you if they need anything from you,

but it's really enough to have three of them with me.

Although you girls don't like playing Facebook,

and don't understand why i login to Facebook so frequently,

especially during lecture break time,

you girls always concern about my MSN status and ask if I am okay.

Although we only knew each other for several months,

it seems like we already known for several years.

And surprising me,

you girls know me well.

Especially Faye,

I was very surprised you know me so well.

Maybe we speak the same language, and some of our habits are almost the same,

even some of our opinions are similar, so I feel very close to you.

Thanks for being my translator when I don't know what they are talking about.

Thanks for speaking Chinese and Hokkien with me,when I am not willing to speak Cantonese.

Thanks for teaching me the correct pronunciation of Cantonese,

and yet, don't laugh at me!!I was so embarrassed when you girls laugh at my Cantonese!==

Thanks for understanding my culture,and learn to accept my Malay Language.

(haha...the girls now know what I mean "geli","terima kasih")

Thanks for accompanying me for high tea,when I was too excited to see Laksa in the new canteen,

and immediately bought it without asking you girls, which you girls are not interested with any food there.

Thanks for everything.

I appreciate our friendship.

Don't ask me how much you girls mean to me,

cause I just can't evaluate!=)

The previous paragraphs was written during the GE class,
and I don't feel like writing a new post,
so just post it with this, as it was the same issue.

Just finished dinner with BraBra and Jacob,
both of them are international students in MM department.
Finally we had our dinner tonight,
which we already planned for about 1 month?
It was so hard for us to meet,
but however, we did it.

We talked about culture shocks,
about the lecturers, locals, exams,
Brazil, Malaysia, Denmark, Sweden,what else?
Aww...I just can't remember!
We talked a lot man!
It was a great night, with great friends!
I was so glad to have you guys with me,
who really understand mine, or I should say ours situation in PolyU.
It was freaking cool!
I enjoyed that!  =]

只是一篇自我勉励的post.

我不应该执著于过去，
不应该跟过去纠缠不清，
不应该让过去影响自己。
我不要让我的梦想因为过去，
而狠狠被践踏。

我要小心翼翼的捧着这个梦想，
细心浇水，用心栽培。
长成大树的那刻，
会心一笑，
一切都是值得的。

改变不了事实，
就改变心态。

开始放慢脚步，
环顾四周。
以前走的太匆忙，
没办法仔细看看。
开始知道怎么样体验人生，
开始知道怎么样宽容待人，
开始知道怎么样活得跟好。

我知道我可以活得更加精彩。

Exchange

不知天高地厚的申请了exchange，

一心只想去台湾。

虽说之前跟自己说，

如果没的去台湾，

去上海也不错。

但是等成绩真正出来的时候，

晴天霹雳都不足于形容。

复旦大学。

或许有人会觉得，

复旦大学那么好，

还嫌弃什么，伤心什么？
我没有在嫌弃。

没有人知道，

我有多失落。

没有人知道，

我有多想去台湾。

毕竟去读书跟去旅行是完全不同的故事。

没有在犹豫要不要去复旦Exchange，

我只是很失落，失落到顶点。

妈妈为了安慰我，

一直说那考完试一起去台湾玩。

我又重复，

It's a different story.

很想跟自己说，

上海好很多啊！

可是我说不出口，

因为我太期待去台湾了。

往往就是这样，

事情不会跟着你想怎样就怎样来发展。

美梦破碎，

我要静静的收拾。

10/4/2011晚上

听爸爸说妈妈的情史
感觉很奇妙
这些事情
不应该是身为母亲的跟女儿说吗
什么时候变成
充当父亲责任的爸爸跟女儿说
Whatever
我听到津津有味

这一夜
很坦然的跟爸爸说起那段往事
没有泪水 没有心痛 没有委屈
因为这件事情
的确让我成长很多

爸爸说
他的女儿很坚强
也长大了很多
很欣慰
爸爸说我坚强，说我长大

这几个星期
强烈感受到小时候的教育
对长大了的我很受用
刚刚跟爸爸通电
很认真但是很婉转的感谢他给我的教育
因为小时后的教育成就现在的性格态度
谢谢爸爸妈妈给我的教育

我会努力成为更好的人=]

High Table Dinner 2011

又是到一Sem一度的Hight Table Dinner,
这次跟HKU一起，
不过很明显的阴盛阳衰，
而且坐在我隔壁的那个男生，
整场都脸臭臭。
lol
我也不想跟你讲话！

基本上跟上次的dinner没什么分别，
不过对这次的乐队有很多抱怨。
一向来都不认为摇滚就要摇头，
结果这次的乐队拼命摇头。
还有那烦死人的电子吉他，
一点音乐之美都没有。
感觉是不懂摇滚的人，
在台上演绎着摇滚。

晚宴结束，
惯例他们来我房间聊天。
我们竟然从11点聊到1点多！
然后才惊觉已经那么迟了。
没办法，
女生之间的"pillow talk"，
就是那么不知不觉就：啊？！那么迟了？！
哈哈～

枯燥的大学生活又活起来了！=]